You don’t understand the value of life until you almost loose it. Many thinks that you have to be physically hurt for your life to be in danger but mental illness does the work pretty well also.
I’ve been near death both ways. I have wanted to die most of my life so I when I got sick I kinda hoped that I died in the process. But when I realized I was capable of taking my own life… It scared me to death.. There is nothing scarier than suicide. (At least for me). People says that suicide is selfish, what they don’t understand that it’s a kind of self defense. The problem with is that it’s a permanent solution for a temporary problem. When I say temporary I don’t mean a couple of days, or even a couple of months, because recovery from depression can take time, but it’s not as long as eternity. I can’t stress enough the urgency for more mental health awareness, so people can recognize the signs of mental distress and help the ones in need. In 2014 it’s outrageous that depression is still stigmatized, particularly in ” first world countries” which are suppose to have most things figured out. Yet there’s that epidemic going at an extremely high rate, and our societies don’t seem to realize the gravity of the situation.
I think that my ranting about mental illness bug had bit me today , because I just can’t stop talking about it. I have an online voice, mind as well use it for the better. We celebrate life, we want to humanitarian, but why do we forget about the ones that are dead inside? When I was depressed, I was just surviving, and trust me it’s not fun. Not being able to feel, or just feeling pain are no proper ways of living. The worse part it that most mental illnesses are manageable with proper treatments. PEOPLE RECOVER FROM DEPRESSION!
It’s such an hidden truth that even people who suffer from it, tend to forget it. Small acts of kindness can do a real difference in someone who has lost taste of life. I remember, one thing that kept me going is that I had to give a daily report to my friend A.. We weren’t as close as we are, but the fact that she showed that she cared, made me hold on to life a little more. My friend M. spent her 2 weeks vacations doing activities with me, she knew I liked to play tennis so she would rent the tennis court, would come pick me up and I had no excuses to stay in.
Not everyone has such a good support system, during my depression, I basically changed friends because my old ones would make fun of me and tell me to toughen up. It was one of the best decisions I’ve ever made, luckily, 2 angels came to my rescue M and A, and I think they will stay in my life forever. I also withdrew from my best friends, not because they wouldn’t be supportive but because they were away from me and I didn’t want to worry them. Shame also played a part in it, I’m not gonna lie, how do you explain to the people who knows you the most that you want to kill yourself, when everything is going right in your life.
Be that angel to someone, remind them that you care. We are a social specie and our survival depends on our interconnection.
We use the word life too much, not understanding its true meaning. The act of living does not consist of having a pulse; its waking up and going to sleep yearning to see another day!