My weekend was special. First I was supposed to go to the beach on Friday with BF. My mom told me last-minute we couldn’t use her car. I was very disappointed , I really feel like it’s hard to be able to count on anybody. (Well it’s her car so I can’t hold a grudge.) So I called 2 rental companies they asked me 1500 dollars deposit! Like really! I know it’s just a deposit but 1) I didn’t that amount of space on my credit car 2) I’m not sure I trust them enough to let them block that much money on my car. AVIS Canada is 500 , AVIS Haiti 1500 HUGE DIFFERENCE! Why is everything more expensive here? ……..
I’m lost in my thoughts today. It’s making me anxious, and when I’m anxious I get depressed. I’m kinda sad… I’m very exited about Haiti and having the time to do things I love, like Blogging, teaching and learning. But I feel like Bf is just moving for me, it’s kind of upsetting because he’s the one who convinced me to do it and now he’s freaking out about my plans.
I’m not gonna change them because I’ve decided to choose my happiness first. He doesn’t do well with change, but I think it’s his problem and he has to solve it. I told him he should start planning what he’s gonna down with his time in Haiti. Everything is easier for us there and I think the ultimate luxury is the amount of free time we’re gonna get to spend on personal projects.
The extra time comes from the fact that for the first year we’ll be at our parent’s (no rent) and they have help (so no cooking or cleaning). Meaning that after work, there’s no chores to do.
That’s all for today. I’m not feeling well.
I’ll post tomorrow!
We talked about resilience, and how it’s an important skill to master. Resilience is a matter of survival. Here are my 5 favorite quotes about resilience:
“My scars remind me that I did indeed survive my deepest wounds. That in itself is an accomplishment. And they bring to mind something else, too. They remind me that the damage life has inflicted on me has, in many places, left me stronger and more resilient. What hurt me in the past has actually made me better equipped to face the present.”
― Steve Goodier
“Resilience is not a commodity you are born with, waiting silently on tap. It is self-manufactured painstakingly over time by working through your problems and never giving up, even in the face of difficulty or failure.”
― Lorii Myers, No Excuses, The Fit Mind-Fit Body Strategy Book
“Hearts who struggled worst never gives up on possibilities when finding solutions reaching out for others’ loss & despair.”
“It is not the critic who counts, not the man who points out how the strong man stumbled, or where the doer of deeds could have done them better. The credit belongs to the man who is actually in the arena; whose face is marred by dust and sweat and blood; who strives valiantly; who errs and comes short again and again; who knows the great enthusiasms, the great devotions, and spends himself in a worthy cause; who, at the best, knows in the end the triumph of high achievement; and who, at worst, if he fails, at least fails while daring greatly, so that his place shall never be with those cold and timid souls who know neither victory nor defeat.
It is not the strongest of the species that survive,
nor the most intelligent, but the one most responsive to change.