Hey my loves!
i finally got time to read some of your blogs!! I realized how much can happen within a few weeks. Today was an okay day for me. I was kinda depressed but I was able to function. I spent the day with my little niece, she’s 9 months old and she’s adorable. That brought me joy :). Then my aunt came home and took me out to see her cousin. She’s actually fun to talk to and it felt good to get out of the house. I have an Interview on Tuesday, it’s a follow up interview, I hope I get it, because really need financial independence. My mom also bought my ticket to Canada and I’m happy about that. I feel like I’m going home! I guess I have 2 homes now. I’m so happy that immigration saga is over!
What else? My new friend P. is awesome (Was it P. I called him on my last post?). Its really refreshing to talk to someone who’s honest with himself and others. People see him as cold and antisocial but he’s actually a very sweet guy. He just doesn’t waste his time on unnecessary social theater (If I can call it like that). My boyfriend is not bothered by that new friendship and I’m happy about that. It means that he trusts me and understands my need to socialize more in a more secular way. I don’t groups very well.
By the way do you guys really care about what I do during my days ? Should I write about them? Because I don’t find it interesting. Maybe it will be when I start working. I’ve been trying to explain to P. depression, and how it cannot be linked to just one particular event…and how it’s doesn’t have to be an immediate response to an event, that usually the events act as triggers and revive old wounds. It’s concept very hard to grasp. Because he is extremely rational, he’s not good at understanding gray areas. He challenges my intelligence and I like that. He asks questions because not only because he’s curious (in a scientific manner) but because he cares.I never feel elements of judgments in his words and that’s a very good quality.
I think I bring to him my knowledge. Since I do a lot of research he gets first hand access to a database. I also help him be more in touch with his feelings and be more flexible about life.I think I can also give him girl advises although he doesn’t listen, but he’ll realize that I’m always right (Mouhahahaahha).
I’m sleepy now… So I’m gonna leave you with a friendship quote:
“When we honestly ask ourselves which person in our lives mean the most to us, we often find that it is those who, instead of giving advice, solutions, or cures, have chosen rather to share our pain and touch our wounds with a warm and tender hand. The friend who can be silent with us in a moment of despair or confusion, who can stay with us in an hour of grief and bereavement, who can tolerate not knowing, not curing, not healing and face with us the reality of our powerlessness, that is a friend who cares.”
― Henri J.M. Nouwen, Out of Solitude: Three Meditations on the Christian Life